God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

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Friday, July 17, 2009

1 year ago today.

I will never forget how I felt one year ago today. We were so excited that we were pg and we were going to see our babies again, so we went into the fertility clinic for our ultrasound and I will never forget the look that the tech had on her face, I knew then that something was not right. So she went out and got the Dr and he tried and looked and all that was there was 2 empty sacs. Our twins had passed. I was 8 wks.
I miss them so much and wonder what it would have been like with twins and what they looked like now. I know that God was in control and if it wasn't for losing the twins and changing my life in the mist of the pain I would not be where I am now pregnant with my second miracle that I will get to meet in a few short weeks.
I hold them in my heart very close and near having had the chance to be pregnant and carrying them for 8 wks. I can't wait to meet up and see them in heaven someday so perfect. Baby Baker Twins mommy loves you and can;t wait to see you again. You will never be forgotten.

I believe always, always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain
And his promise remains
He will be with you always.

This song talks about the unfailing love and promise that God will remain with you in the storm always. If it wasn't for my continuing to trust in God, although at times I did loss faith, but he got me through.

Building 429-Always.

2 comments:

Amanda Hoyt said...

In loving memory of your sweet twins, Jen.

Hugs and prayers today and always,
Amanda

God, My Savior Forever! said...

This is a beautiful tribute to your twins whom you will see again just like I will see my grandfather again who passes in Jan and I miss so much. Yesterday I spent the afternoon with my friend who has a 9 yr, has had 8 miscarriages and just lost one more baby..this time she was 8 wks along..alot farther and they feel that it was a girl..Lily Ann..so you can imagine how hard it's been for them. She's now going to grief counseling and is starting to get back to her normal life. I sent her an email today with the link to this post because I know it will really bless her to know that she's not the only one. I love that song./video...it minister to me as we continue to hopefully concieve! Thanx for being a blessing<3

Hugs, Susan