I am still around !

Happy Thursday everyone,
I just wanted to say that today is the day that I have my First OB appt. I am alittle nervous cause we didn't get to go to a OB appt with my first pregnancy. I feel that we have gotten over two obstacles with this second pregnancy 1. we heard the heart beat, in which we didn't get to hear with the twins, and 2. we have our first appt, we only made it to 8 weeks with the twins and I am now close to 10 weeks. I miss the twins very much, and as we are coming up on my due date at the end of Febuary. It is going to be a rough day, but at the same time I need to be thankful that I am pregnant now, and that the twins are watching over their brother or sister that I am carrying now. I pray that all is well with this peanut and he/she is growing and healthy, and that we get a good report today to ease my mind and comfort me nerves.

Sorry for being MIA I am just trying to be sensitive to those that are still going through the terrible journey of IF and to those that have lost little ones do to a miscarriage and are still struggling. As I understand first hand as I have been through both and it is not easy to go to someone blog and see an announcement that they are pregnant. I remember to many times of the emotions that would come over me, you are somewhat happy for them but at the sometime you are mad at God and question Why Lord why them and not me. So am I going to try and be sensitive in what I post and how I say it. I still plan on giving update from Dr appts and other new that happens, since I have family and friends and check the blog often.

I have been feeling not to bad, the morning sickness is kicking my butt right now, but it is all worth it and it is okay. The morning and the evenings are worse for me. My headaches are at a minimal, as long as I take the Tylenol then I am okay. I think that I am starting to get a belly, but it might be bloating and my fat belly from before I was pregnant. I have lost a totally of 12 pounds since I have been pregnant, do to not being able to keep things down.
I will update after my appt.