Sorry, I have not been in the mood to blog, let alone do much of anything this past week and a half I did go back to work on Thursday half day. It is and has been a rough week and the coming weeks to come, as one minute you are pregnant and all is happy and good and the next your dreams are shattered and your babies are in the arms of God.
I had to have a D&C last Tuesday, I was very crampy and had been spotting off and on, and after a week of waiting for my body to take care of it, I couldn't take knowing that that the babies were in my womb not alive and I was still carrying them. So my Re was unable to get me in his schedule to do the surgery. So I went to see my Ob and she saw me Tuesday am and I had the surgery at 5:40 p.m. Tuesday night. I am so glad that she worked me in.
I have never felt so uncomfortable, I came out of the room to go into the lobby to wait on the time that my surgery was from the nurse, and I walked in to sit down and lost it tears came down my cheeks. In the waiting room was mostly pregnant people, now why didn't they leave me in the room, since I just lost my babies. I just cried and stared at the floor. I want to be one of those happy and pregnant people with a belly.
I am really struggling to get through each day. I know that God has a plan for Carter and I, but it doesn't make the situation any better. I know that this is going to take some time to get through, I just keep thinking in my mind that the babies were sick and since they were conjoined, not knowing what the future would have held for them, not knowing if we would have had to chose one over the other to live if we would if separated them. I did find out from my Dr when I had my appt to discuss the surgery that there was a chromosomal issue as well that had come up on the ultrasound.
We really appreciate the prayers and encouragement from our family and friends as well as the cards from our loving church family and our blogging friends as well.
Below are some flowers that were sent to us.
Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Update! Please Continue to keep us in your Prayers.
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Hi Jen! I was stopping by just to let you know I was thinking of you and was glad to see you had written a new post.
I can't even begin to imagine how difficult this must be for both you and Carter. And I know there are no words I can say to make it better.
Please know I am praying for you both and for the future the Lord has planned for you. I know there are so many more out there praying, too!
Take care, my friend!
Hey Jenny! Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you! praying for you too! Hugs!
Prayers to you, my dear. I'm sorry for your losses, and I will continue to keep you both in my thoughts.
hugs!
i am lost for words but sending you a big hug from South africa
xxx
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