God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

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Saturday, May 10, 2008

Trying to be Hopefully!

I am on cd 30 on a 30 day cycle, I hope that our trip away to Iowa helped with the stress of ttc. I felt more relaxed, with no worries in the wind. So if I haven't gotten the dreadful AF by Sunday, then I am going to test. I broke down last night into tears, this whole ttc thing is getting to me, and with no positive result after all the time and effort and money that we have done so far. It just shouldn't be this hard to get pregnant. I am almost on a year and a half, with seems like an eternity in the infertile world.
I had finished a book that I had been reading for a few weeks now and I got to the last chapter and it was talking about trying for so many years and with treatments and having no success, that's when I lost it, and I started to cry. I pray that our dream will come true and Carter and I can experience parenthood, and have the family that we have both dreamed of. I am trying to lean on God for my faith, hope and comfort in him through for this weekend as Mother's Day is tomorrow.


Melanie said...

Praying for you as you pray so hard for a baby this Mother's Day weekend!

Kate&CodyWhite said...

I hope this is it for you Sweetie! Hugs and tons of prayers your way :)